I don't want everything to work out perfectly because that isn't real.

Just. Not. Good. Enough.

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So I can't lie.

I'm upset.

I feel average.

I think I'm dumb.

I hate it.

I'm so much better than that.

I know I can do this.

I know I can get into the schools I want.

I know I'm young.

I know none of this exactly matters.

Still, it makes me want to give up and apply to ecu like every other average beer guzzling douchebag at my school, but no.

I'm going to work, hard.

Do everything I can.

And hit my dream score.

Mille huit cent here I come!

what's happening

This is so strange.

I rarely feel ill, but lately, it's happening a lot.

I'll be around friends, or just home, and I get this pain in my side.

It hurts, bad.

That goes away, and then, I get a headache.

So I take tylenol.

That goes away, then I start feeling nauseated.

I never vomit, but I feel dizzy.

Like I could fall down, easily.

This happened at the keystone dance.

This happened during my first pre cal test.

This happened at my third musical rehearsal.

This happened today.

It's so strange.

I never get sick, or feel really bad.

I want to have fun and dance and sing, be it at a dance or musical rehearsal.

But I can't.

The keystone dance was fun, but I couldn't do much.

I think that's when it was the worst.

I have no clue what this is.

I need to know what's happening.

DJ

I can honestly say I'm happy.

I'm feeling like I'm a great part of something.

I'm finally relaxing.

I had a great night.

One of those nights that you don't want to end.

Not so exciting, not so fun, but together.

Like a deep harmony...

In the stereo.

The steering wheel.

The sofa.

The laughter.

Something beautiful.

I feel loved.

I feel like I belong.

I will never forget these nights.

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that's all

7 Things To Do Before April

1. Redecorate My Room

2. Get New Tee Shirts for Springtime

3. Read 3 books

4. Write 3 poems and attempt to write a one act play

5. Maintain an A in pre cal- off to a good start there

6. Get my License

7. Set up a Tumblr

Time to get busy!

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I will show them all.

I will show them all.

I will show them all.

I can do this.

I can do this.

I can do this.

This is possible.

This is possible.

This is possible.

I'm ready!

I'm ready!

I'm ready!

It's time to prove everyone wrong.

It's time to prove everyone wrong.

It's time to prove everyone wrong.

My time starts, now.