I'm all shook up

Literally.

Tonight I went to Albemarle to see Noah's play, and it was so good. It was all about love and pelvis thrusting, and it was very well done. I was really surprised. And my god, Noah can dance. It was a fun night, and I didn't really feel bad. How can you when you're hearing great singing and seeing dancing, and sexy pelvic thrusting?

But seriously, I just realized everything is different. My life has been shook up this year. Nothing is the same. Some of my friends are leaving, and it just hasn't set in until now. I now feel like I'm myself. I'm confident and happy. But I feel like it's all too little, too late. I've missed out on a lot of life worrying over pettiness. Not showing my true self, hiding, cowering, for no reason. Maybe it just took time, but I still feel like I've missed out.

I want this year to be for being me, doing me. I have the friends, the money, the car, now I just need to get my head straight. I can do this. I'm strong. I'm going to do what I want for me because I'm the best. I'm going to be me, and I'm not going to change for anyone.

ϟ Forever

I can't believe it.
Tonight at midnight, my childhood is over.
I have grown up on harry potter.
I vividly remember seeing the first Harry Potter.
I was six, and my mom and I got into a packed theatre.
From the first scene, I was mesmerized.
There is no story, no world like Harry Potter's.
It's so beautiful and fantastical, bursting with adventure.
It's been a part of my life for nine and three quarters years.
(Hah, I bet that was planned!)
It's all coming to an end.
This is the last movie.
No more looking up, when the next movie's coming out.
No more buying books.
It's all over.
I'm grown up.
It's bittersweet, but I'm hoping this is the best movie.

Next Year

My Junior Year Schedule: (all in order)

1st semester (of death)

. Honors English 3
. AP Calc AB
. Theatre 3
. AP Environmental Science

2nd Semester

. Honors US History
. AP English- Language and Comp
. Honors French III
. Honors Chemistry

Okay, so I got this before leaving for england, and I majorly freaked out, but really, I think it's going to be okay.
These are the facts...
First semester is definitely harder than second, but oh well, get all over with, I say.
Both are difficult, but first is going to be more enjoyable

FIrst:

. Honors english may be taught by signorelli and that will make me happy.
. AP Calc, dunno about the teacher, but I adore math, so that'll be a brilliant second period.
It will be difficult, but I have a ton of people who can help me. I'm honestly excited.
. Theatre 3 with Ru Paul, haha. I love Harris and maybe, hopefully teena will be in there!
. AP Enviro I have with Sarah so that pretty much makes it a good class right off the bat (:
And the class seems interesting, and I think it will help me with chemistry. And from what
I've heard it's really easy to place out of.

I'm going to have a ton of homework and studying but with two APs, I'm seriously set for being a marshal. I'm going to work my tail off, but I honestly think it'll be worth it. And I really believe the teachers are going to be great.

Second:

. Honors US History, bleh, but it's easy.
. AP English 3, is most definitely going to be taught by Mrs. Signorelli so that's perfect!
And the class seems interesting, and i'm sure it will help me with my writing.
. Honors French 3 or Calc BC will be this period depending. I'm going to have such
a hard time giving up french. Calculus will have to be amazing for me to consider
dropping french 3 for it. I love french so much, the language is beautiful and after
going to france, it means so much to me. I love Mrs. Cress. It would seriously
kill me to miss out on a French class.
. Honors Chemistry is the wild card, a very wild card. The woman who teaches
AP Enviro teaches honors chem but people claim that she's "different" with her
various classes, and that she makes chemistry hard for everyone, but I feel like
it'll be easy for me since I'm good at math.

This semester will be easier, even if I do end up taking Calc BC. The honors
classes are not going to be very difficult, hopefully. And AP English isn't
supposed to be hard. It will be a good end to a very tough year.

I'm ready to start this years so I can taste Seniority and sooner than that college.

time is fleeting

I have not blogged hardly at all this summer, which honestly is a good thing.
This blog is something I write in when I get upset, or have time to blog.
I've had very little time to blog.
I've been busy doing me.
This summer has been for me, and I love it.
These past few days have been slow, but these six weeks have been so full.
I've been to Nice, Geneva, and Monaco.
I've driven all over concord seeing people.
I've seen concerts.
I've been to a party.
And I really just don't have time to list it all.
But honestly, I have had time for laziness, but it's the good kind.
Laziness that hasn't made me sick with boredom.
Necessary laziness.
But my laziness is over, I have books to read.
Films to see (TONIGHTTT!!!)
I'm just really happy.
Happy to wakeup, ready to take on the world.
It's wonderful.
I'm going to live these next six weeks like they're my last, because well...
They are.