Nobody blogs anymore.

First Day Of School

I'm pleased with my classes, but never with the people.
I hope college will change this.
All in all, great.
English with SIg, always great.
Calculus is small, but the teacher is nice.
Apparently she works with DJ.
Theatre 3 is just chill.
APES is wild and busy.
I'm sure these classes will be great.

Kerouac

I love reading On The Road.
I feel my soul travelling.
It's so late, but I really don't care.
A journey is worth a loss of sleep.

I hear a symphony

I see color
I feel it
Bright
Landscapes feel alive
I want to take pictures of everything
Write stories about everywhere I go
It makes me smile
This world is beautiful
Maybe I've never noticed it
But I am seeing it now!

Wisdom teeth are out

And I'm actually okay

I'm all shook up

Literally.

Tonight I went to Albemarle to see Noah's play, and it was so good. It was all about love and pelvis thrusting, and it was very well done. I was really surprised. And my god, Noah can dance. It was a fun night, and I didn't really feel bad. How can you when you're hearing great singing and seeing dancing, and sexy pelvic thrusting?

But seriously, I just realized everything is different. My life has been shook up this year. Nothing is the same. Some of my friends are leaving, and it just hasn't set in until now. I now feel like I'm myself. I'm confident and happy. But I feel like it's all too little, too late. I've missed out on a lot of life worrying over pettiness. Not showing my true self, hiding, cowering, for no reason. Maybe it just took time, but I still feel like I've missed out.

I want this year to be for being me, doing me. I have the friends, the money, the car, now I just need to get my head straight. I can do this. I'm strong. I'm going to do what I want for me because I'm the best. I'm going to be me, and I'm not going to change for anyone.

ϟ Forever

I can't believe it.
Tonight at midnight, my childhood is over.
I have grown up on harry potter.
I vividly remember seeing the first Harry Potter.
I was six, and my mom and I got into a packed theatre.
From the first scene, I was mesmerized.
There is no story, no world like Harry Potter's.
It's so beautiful and fantastical, bursting with adventure.
It's been a part of my life for nine and three quarters years.
(Hah, I bet that was planned!)
It's all coming to an end.
This is the last movie.
No more looking up, when the next movie's coming out.
No more buying books.
It's all over.
I'm grown up.
It's bittersweet, but I'm hoping this is the best movie.

Next Year

My Junior Year Schedule: (all in order)

1st semester (of death)

. Honors English 3
. AP Calc AB
. Theatre 3
. AP Environmental Science

2nd Semester

. Honors US History
. AP English- Language and Comp
. Honors French III
. Honors Chemistry

Okay, so I got this before leaving for england, and I majorly freaked out, but really, I think it's going to be okay.
These are the facts...
First semester is definitely harder than second, but oh well, get all over with, I say.
Both are difficult, but first is going to be more enjoyable

FIrst:

. Honors english may be taught by signorelli and that will make me happy.
. AP Calc, dunno about the teacher, but I adore math, so that'll be a brilliant second period.
It will be difficult, but I have a ton of people who can help me. I'm honestly excited.
. Theatre 3 with Ru Paul, haha. I love Harris and maybe, hopefully teena will be in there!
. AP Enviro I have with Sarah so that pretty much makes it a good class right off the bat (:
And the class seems interesting, and I think it will help me with chemistry. And from what
I've heard it's really easy to place out of.

I'm going to have a ton of homework and studying but with two APs, I'm seriously set for being a marshal. I'm going to work my tail off, but I honestly think it'll be worth it. And I really believe the teachers are going to be great.

Second:

. Honors US History, bleh, but it's easy.
. AP English 3, is most definitely going to be taught by Mrs. Signorelli so that's perfect!
And the class seems interesting, and i'm sure it will help me with my writing.
. Honors French 3 or Calc BC will be this period depending. I'm going to have such
a hard time giving up french. Calculus will have to be amazing for me to consider
dropping french 3 for it. I love french so much, the language is beautiful and after
going to france, it means so much to me. I love Mrs. Cress. It would seriously
kill me to miss out on a French class.
. Honors Chemistry is the wild card, a very wild card. The woman who teaches
AP Enviro teaches honors chem but people claim that she's "different" with her
various classes, and that she makes chemistry hard for everyone, but I feel like
it'll be easy for me since I'm good at math.

This semester will be easier, even if I do end up taking Calc BC. The honors
classes are not going to be very difficult, hopefully. And AP English isn't
supposed to be hard. It will be a good end to a very tough year.

I'm ready to start this years so I can taste Seniority and sooner than that college.

time is fleeting

I have not blogged hardly at all this summer, which honestly is a good thing.
This blog is something I write in when I get upset, or have time to blog.
I've had very little time to blog.
I've been busy doing me.
This summer has been for me, and I love it.
These past few days have been slow, but these six weeks have been so full.
I've been to Nice, Geneva, and Monaco.
I've driven all over concord seeing people.
I've seen concerts.
I've been to a party.
And I really just don't have time to list it all.
But honestly, I have had time for laziness, but it's the good kind.
Laziness that hasn't made me sick with boredom.
Necessary laziness.
But my laziness is over, I have books to read.
Films to see (TONIGHTTT!!!)
I'm just really happy.
Happy to wakeup, ready to take on the world.
It's wonderful.
I'm going to live these next six weeks like they're my last, because well...
They are.

These past three days have been so perfect

They've consisted of...
Good Music
Loud Music
Ringing Ears
Dr. Who
SUPAH BASS
SUPAH EIGHT
Slushies
Hugs
Car Rides
Polaroids
Funny short people
Wolverines
Beautiful Girls
Graduations
Swings
Morrissey
Wings
Connections
Communication
Late Nights
Vulgarity
Reckless Driving
Breathless Laughter
Food
Friends
Sunshine
Blink 182
Chessa
Drew
Stephanie
Mercedes

These past three days, I've felt so alive. It's okay you like him. It's okay everything that's happened. It's okay I don't know you. It's okay you're getting better. It's okay you've done that. Nothing has changed across the board. If things stay like this, great. This is still a summer of love to me.

Here we go

Everything is starting to click. I'm feeling that sense of security. I've finally reached that point. Happiness. Dare I say it? Speaking of happiness can feel depressing, but it's not now. I realize that I'm not completely fulfilled. There are some voids, but I'm comfortable and yes, happy. I have what I want. I have a car. I have a money source for gas and food. I have good, honest friends. Maybe none of them are my best friends, but they're all good people that I enjoy being with. I've made these relationships. Tight bonds. I'm starting my life. This is the beginning. I feel like I'm starting my great adventures. I'm so excited. I'm staying up late. I'm sleeping in. I'm feeling so alive. This is the first time I've felt this full without a girlfriend. As much as I am lonely. As much as I could date some girls, I have this. I treasure this. I feel this strength. The only thing I need now is friendships.

Kelly Jo, Never Forget

I still remember how the mood of that party turned a year ago.
Graduation was joyful, the party started out fine, and then there was a text message.
Tears.
Tears.
Tears.
I didn't know you, and I still, I still bawled.
You're simply unforgettable.
This tragedy brought our town together.
Beautiful tragedy.
Ugliest death.
We have to stop being fast.
Living in our moments.
Wrapped up in our lives.
We have to slow down.
We have to remember, when it hurts.
Because missing someone is loving someone.
Love just doesn't die.
There is a light and it never goes out.
Keep shining kelly, I love you <3

First Day Of Summer

This year was difficult.
I had a lot to get through and a lot of things/people to get over.
But I did.
I hope everyone will someday feel as I do right now because it feels excellent.
I feel belonging.
I feel loved.
And I finally feel summer.
Thanks for being there, everyone.

Follow Parlez, it's gonna be great

Spring Break

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D

I've been looking forward to this for sooooo long!

My Shoes Are Clean Girl, How About Yours?

I'm feeling much happier.
I'm laughing, at everything.
Smiling subconsciously.
Maybe it's all the sleep I've been getting.
Maybe it's just having a fresh start.
I'm done worrying.
What's going to happen, will happen.
I'm feeling healthier, stronger, and smarter.
I'm ready for tomorrow.
I don't care that I don't have love.
I have great friends.
That's all that matters, really.

Almost, Maine

How strange?
I saw a play about love after being heart broken.
Yet I feel so much better.
And so much worse.
I feel better because I recaptured a love.
A love of theatre with Kelly.
I feel ill because I realize that the people there I used to be so close to.
I am so far away from now.
It's a tad awkward.
Can't lie.
I wish I could recapture these bonds.
I want to see these people before we all go our separate ways.
I want to do theatre at the glenn again.

Wow

Your voice sounded like heaven.
I forgot the ring of it.
My heart is leaping.
My stomach is tied in knots.
I can hardly breath.
Tomorrow, Tomorrow, Tomorrow <3

Jesus Christ Superstar

Finally I have time to blog again.
For a little bit.
Life is looking up.
I've made some really great friends lately.
Friends that love me.
I feel happy again.
I'm out of the musical, kicked out.
Okay, whatever.
I was tired anyway.
I'm going to be positive.
I have to make the most of these years because time is fleeting.

Biorhythms

I have this project in my pre cal class due friday.
I'm stressing, but I know it's going to be awesome.
I love the theory.
It is theorized that our bodies, minds, and emotions undergo a cycle.
Represented by a sine function that period repeats and repeats and repeats until you stop living.
It's fascinating.
It seems everything that illogical, biased, and uncontrollable has a root or a cause.
The high points of the sine function represent the best, or the highs of one's activity.
The low points represent the sleepy, or the inactive days of one's cycle.
The "bad days" in one's cycle are days that occur when the graph crosses the x axis.
The theory is not perfect.
It doesn't apply to everyone.
But, I believe it's about right with me.
I think it may affect teenagers, more than adults.
That week is was depressed, I was coming down to a critical point.
I felt sick last night, and that was on a physical low day.
It may be an answer to my random feelings.
On critical days, I just won't blog.