Wow!

I really haven't blogged much lately... partly because it's summer! And partly because I've been traveling a ton. I didn't ever say, but that trip to london was the most amazing experience I've ever had. WOW! It was such a culture shock. Seeing signs in french/english/spanish. Hearing people's various british accents. Our tour guides were wonderful. Curry was delicious. The other tour groups were friendly. West end was amazing, just like new york, if not better. The tower bridge was majestic. London bridge was nothing. Seeing Henry the Eighth's palace was so cool. Talking to locals, very interesting. Seeing Abbey road and thinking of my favorite Beatle's song- penny lane. Eating british ice cream. Speaking french to the french locals made me want to pee myself. Seeing emma watson on burberry ads was amazing. Finding my favorite TV series, Skins in a video store with the bbc logo on top. Seeing telephone booths resembling those of dr. who. Seeing spectacularly drunk people watching football. The tower of london. Seeing the changing of the guard. Seeing big ben ring. The amazing pictures I took, but have yet to upload. Seeing the typical british houses, and wanting to call one home so bad. Listening to the roar of the london underground and praying that screeching is completely natural. Getting near the window to hear the rush of the train. The amazing fish and chips I ate. Seeing 39 steps. Loving how non theatrical the trip was for us. Eating croissants. Seeing buildings where harry potter was filmed. Wearing my favorite clothes and feeling amazing and european. Buying clothes I don't need. Seeing posh people. Seeing black people with jamaican wanna be accents. Staying up until midnight despite exhaustion. Seeing the semi globe theatre. Seeing mushroom trees. Getting lost in mazes. Walking on cobblestone roads. Finding that random wallace and gromit sticker. I loved it all, and so much more. I want to go back so bad. But I want a friend to come with me. Who wants in? My family is considering a trip in 2011.

You've gotta make it better!

The fact is I love you so much.

I don't care if we fight.

I don't care about what happened last year.

I love you so much.

You make me happier than all my friends combined, male and female.

This year will be for you and me.

Someone Call Me,

So I Don't Have To Think

About Where I Am,

And Who I'm With,

And What Happens In Three Days.

A Separate Peace

I just finished reading this book called A Separate Peace.

It was pretty good.

It's a classic, written by John Knowles.

The story is set in the 1940s during WWII. The story is told from a schoolboy named Gene. Gene is nearing the end of his senior year. He and a few other school boys share a room. They're relationships are similar to relationships of teens today. They just speak more formally.

Gene is very bright. He is close to being valedictorian. He wants to be first in his class so bad. Gene feels that his intellect is the only gift he has. His best friend Phineas, or Finny as he's called, is a carefree athlete. He's very popular, unlike Gene.

One night, Finny takes Gene out to the beach, which is against school rules. Gene goes anyway. They swim in the ocean and go to a bar. Gene realizes that he has a Trig. Test that morning.

He fails it. Gene claims that it's the first test he's ever failed.

Gene starts to get angry at Finny. He begins to think irrationally. He begins to believe that Finny planned to keep him out all night so he'd fail. He starts to hate Finny, but it's more than evident that his hatred is derived from envy.

The last day of summer session, the boys of his dorm go to the lake. The boys climb the tree and jump into the river. Gene and Finny climb the tree. Finny is out on the branch, preparing to jump. Gene's anger gets the best of him, and he bends the tree limb, causing Finny to fall.

Throughout the rest of the novel, Gene suffers from guilt. The boys of Gene's dorm, including himself, find themselves playing with an evil greater than themselves. An evil that is perhaps a contributor of the war overseas.

I think this book is very powerful and relatable, even to the youth of today.

One of the themes of A Separate Peace is War, but not a war with artillery,

Rather a war within one's mind.

Mankind is always battling something,

be it competition, love, poverty, or envy (like Gene)

It seems to be in our nature to keep fighting.

In highschool, like Gene's boarding school, many envy.

Many fight one another.

Many have low self esteems.

And a few don't come out alive.

Throughout the book Gene struggled with finding his true identity and purpose. He wanted to be Finny. He looked desperately for A Separate Peace of mind, that he had worth and he belonged, as himself.

Isn't that what we truly want, to be accepted for ourselves?

immature, in a word.

I'm really annoyed in high school.

I hate how everyone has a label put on them.

I hate that perfectly good freshmen are going to go down a bad path.

Statistically, it's inevitable.

I actually like the rising freshmen.

I like them better than my grade.

But seriously, it's getting ridiculous.

Rising sophomores are saying how they're going to be so cool just because they'll be older.

Oh yeah, SOPHOMORES!

It's stupid.

Age doesn't define you, your personality does.

When will people understand that?

June 9, 2010.

I hate that plans fall through.

It sucks.

I really wish you weren't leaving in a few days.

I really wish things could stay the same.

I really wish my moms work would get easier.

I really wish my saxophone could catch on fire so I don't have to practice.

I really wish my friends were happier.

I really wish I had the ability to cure the pains of love.

I really wish love wasn't so difficult.

I really wish some people never change.

I really wish I get into Davidson/Carolina.

I really wish Death Cab for Cutie comes to charlotte.

I really wish I could drive alone, with the radio blaring.

I really wish I wasn't going away again for two weeks.

I really wish I won't miss you so bad that it physically hurts.

But I will.

Is that a good thing?

It doesn't feel like it.

whee!

My 4th of july was so wonderful.

I've had three awful ones before this one.

That involved stepmothers and obnoxiously drunken socialites.

My day was wonderful.

I went tubing.

I saw my favorite cousin.

And I ate a flag cake.

I love my family.

I love this country, most of the time.

Happy Birthday America(:

Pandora's song

"Some days are disasters that you wish could just end
Other days are B*******, just like a bad boyfriend
But it makes me feel much worse than this to see your face masked with a frown
I'm not telling you to smile, but don't be down
Don't be down, my friend!
Don't do your wrists any harm!
You don't belong on a funny farm
And I'd rather see you in a party dress than in a hospital gown
I'm not telling you to smile, but don't be down"

Feel Better anyone who's down.

(Nobody is better off on a funny farm)

I should probably think more before I act on impulse.

I hate people who have arguments on facebook.

I mean what is this really solving.

I'm starting to hate people in general.

Maybe I'm just tired and frustrated.

And really upset.

But have dignity,

get of formspring and on the phone.

I mean really insults on formspring and facebook

SO SCARY!

AND SO COOOL.

Drama is drama, oh bummer your boyfriend of two weeks dumped you.

You didn't know them half your life,

GET OVER IT YOU EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED FREAKS.

I need mango juice,

bye.