So this is it.

I'm so upset.

I had the most amazing summer.

I've had the best days of my life.

Now it all comes crashing down on me in this final stretch.

I could die. Just die.

I feel alone and afraid, and what you want isn't going to happen for a while.

This hurts more than anything has ever hurt me before.

I'm sorry, but I just can't live in an illusion that things are chip chiperoo.

We'll get better.

But I don't need you now.

I need to be surrounded by my friends who love and care about me.

I need people like Ella, Sally, Priscilla, Will, Sarah, younger Sarah, Kevyn, Megan, Haley, Noah, Casey, Stephanie, and so many more. I need them more than ever.

So this is it. I don't need you. I can't take you now. This is done for now. NO CONTACT.

I love you, this is why there's so much pain.